i've been talking and talking..
more like writing and writing
about changing my life
my family really was driving me nuts.
and i just kept writing in order to escape
and dreaming about
being someone in my DREAMS but i want this to be a reality
and not a delusion.
i'm willing to trust my professors
over my parents at the moment
and i AM going to run away from home.
in fact,
i am positive im going to run away from home.
fellowships? scholarships? anything
i AM going to art school.
so we'll see. its time to DO not say
hard work and determination
that's all i have
it's funny..at this same moment in my sister's life
she had a serious boyfriend
i wonder if she didn't meet ilho when she did
if she would be doing what she is doing now
i wonder if i had met a guy like ilho, or at least how ilho took care of my sister during that time of her life..
if i had a boyfriend like that
would i be where i am now?
oh well.
i feel happy and excited
and relieved.
hope, determination, drive, "blood sweat and tears"--that's what christopher used to say =P i dont care anymore, i dont care what you think, i dont care if you dont believe i dont CARE. i AM a good person, i only have ppl's BEST interest in mind
but I WONT take ppl's shit.
*cross fingers*
please God....look out for me~
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